Haish...

With no voice even on the first day itself, could you ever imagine how would a sales person ever succeed in closing any sales?

I highly doubt so but after a tiring weekend of endless bargaining and relentless bugging passer bys to our lil booth by the corner, we achieved somewhere near the target we set of for the fair...

Clueless?

OK... as usual, I was working at the travel fair (and you could almost find me in every one of them), this time I got to see Karen Mok...

Yeah yeah I know, not really my kinda idol...

Anyway, anyone wouldn't give up the chance to meet and greet right?

I took the chance but unfortunately, I couldn't get an inch closer to this all glamed up celebrity walking past this inaugural red carpet with men forming chains to prevent unwanted attention physical contact...

And according to reliable sources she actually enjoys that few minutes of attention...

So Prima Donna....

But nevertheless... I still went ga ga over and over her...

Hehehehe...

And a week before... I did the Green Fest by the Star papers...

It was a bundle of fun, mixing around to get to know new people, meeting up with the old people, showing of to unknown people...

Anyway, the thing was that we (Angel, Joshua and Me) were suppoed to sing accapela to entertain the crowd but unfortuntely, Icom has blasters and mics that send music across the jungle in FRIM with much less hassle...

So we got a group instead...

Later... We improvised on what we learned during the day, Drum circle...

Its summer break for me now and it really is the best time to kick back and relax. It feels as though it was yesterday that I completed the last sentence on that examination booklet...

Finally, I regain my life once again and its time to reflect on the little things in life. Things that don't seem to matter while you are busy trying to prepare and rushing to complete endless chapters in Public Law...

I sat down and started thinking about my wants, my needs, my aspirations, my crushes, my ups and downs, my pain, my looks, my friends, my talents, my not so talented talents, my future, my past, my regrets and my sorrows. I suppose when your mind is not caught up with something, it tends to drift to places which you may at times, least desire.

I admit I suffer inferiority complex with a capital I & C. Inevitable, I may seem to be the least possible candidate to be diagnosed with it but I suppose each one of us in one way or another develops fear within ourselves so much that we start to be so hard on ourselves. I must agree that we are our own worst judge. I beat myself up trying to prove to the world that I am capable. Though others may seem to think that there is nothing wrong with me being myself, I often try to be better every time and when things don't work out I tend to blame myself and I end up being depressed about something so little that perhaps, 60 years down the road I would be laughing about it in my rocking chair.

The point is that I have learned during these few days of reflection that we need not rush into something and try to be the best in all that we do. I learned that by going with the flow, opportunities seem to surprise you as it pops out in the blue and by being natural, people often see you shine really bright.

Don't however have preconceived judgement that now I am all free from the pangs of inferiority... I do still feel awkward and out of place and add in a dash of feeling not good enough but all I am saying is that when you start to love yourself, those around you would start loving you more...

I am learning to love myself and how about you?