Its summer break for me now and it really is the best time to kick back and relax. It feels as though it was yesterday that I completed the last sentence on that examination booklet...

Finally, I regain my life once again and its time to reflect on the little things in life. Things that don't seem to matter while you are busy trying to prepare and rushing to complete endless chapters in Public Law...

I sat down and started thinking about my wants, my needs, my aspirations, my crushes, my ups and downs, my pain, my looks, my friends, my talents, my not so talented talents, my future, my past, my regrets and my sorrows. I suppose when your mind is not caught up with something, it tends to drift to places which you may at times, least desire.

I admit I suffer inferiority complex with a capital I & C. Inevitable, I may seem to be the least possible candidate to be diagnosed with it but I suppose each one of us in one way or another develops fear within ourselves so much that we start to be so hard on ourselves. I must agree that we are our own worst judge. I beat myself up trying to prove to the world that I am capable. Though others may seem to think that there is nothing wrong with me being myself, I often try to be better every time and when things don't work out I tend to blame myself and I end up being depressed about something so little that perhaps, 60 years down the road I would be laughing about it in my rocking chair.

The point is that I have learned during these few days of reflection that we need not rush into something and try to be the best in all that we do. I learned that by going with the flow, opportunities seem to surprise you as it pops out in the blue and by being natural, people often see you shine really bright.

Don't however have preconceived judgement that now I am all free from the pangs of inferiority... I do still feel awkward and out of place and add in a dash of feeling not good enough but all I am saying is that when you start to love yourself, those around you would start loving you more...

I am learning to love myself and how about you?